Wow! Fun! Excitement!

So the post before this one was meant to be posted yesterday, but for some reason, it wouldn't send.

I had a GREAT time with lil b yesterday! We went for a short coffee, and because I didn't have much time, and we were both antsy to play, we headed to the sleeper bunk of my truck. I gave her a little bit of a play belt strapping while fingering her soaking cunt, and lil b had a couple orgasms at my hand. I did try to take my lil one's ass for the first time, but, lol, she definitely needs a bit more training! She did NOT enjoy it whatsoever! However there was much fucking, and sucking and cuddling. Very nice.

My future shop gift cards were used yesterday, and I purchased a new laptop!!! WOOT WOOT!! So last night, we had a webcam chat too!! Soooo fun! It was the very first time I'd ever got to do that!! Lol, even though there was no sound, we had some laughs, and got to see each others cats, it was just an all around good day. I will be asking for a day off of work, so we can have a night together in Jan.

I hope everyone has a wonderful new years eve, and be safe out there peeps, don't drink and drive!!

"New Year's eve is like every other night; there is no pause in the march of the universe, no breathless moment of silence among created things that the passage of another twelve months may be noted; and yet no man has quite the same thoughts this evening that come with the coming of darkness on other nights."

- Hamilton Wright Mabie

Surprise!!!

Woot woot, I get to meet lil b right away! I ended up getting sent down to Calgary to do some work, and it just so happens that we can meet! Will fill ya'll in after!

Worries...

So, I'm not sure how to start this entry. It feels like I have so much to say, and no words to get it all out. I got to have a short chat with lil b today, and she kinda off hand mentioned that she's only ever seen me 3 times, and its been a month since we've started seeing each other. I could tell in her voice, she was down. I don't know if depressed is the right word, but sadness was there. It hurts me to know that its my fault she's feeling this way. We haven't had the chance to have a real talk about my work, and the fact that it keeps me away all the time. She did know about it, and she even mentioned once, that it might be a good thing we don't see each other all the time so she doesn't get the feeling of being smothered. It seemed like yesterday, when we talked about her running and her stop smoking plan, that everything was great, and she is genuinely excited to show me, and prove to herself that she has the inner strength to conquer some demons and reach some lofty goals she's set for herself.

I miss her so much, and if she feels like I do, I understand why sadness has crept into her. The only reason I've been able to keep it out, is the thought that I'll see her again soon.

The other part of this that worries me, is that, when she opened up to me about her past, and how difficult that was for her to do, she made me promise two things. One, that after that night, I wouldn't bring it up in conversation again. And two, that after, she would try and close up and pull away again. And I promised her that I wouldn't let that happen. I think, that may be happening now, and when we talked for that little while, she was pretty reluctant to tell me how she was feeling. I have a pretty good idea, tho.

Because lil b has difficulty communicating her feelings, and expressing her emotions to me verbally, I've been working on trying to understand her better by reading between the lines a bit. I still am going to be consistent in trying to teach her to open up, and we may need to have a conversation about this later, but that's a whole different conversation. I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination at reading her, but I knew something was bothering her, and this seemed the most logical conclusion.

If I were to guess, I would say, she feels lonely. Lonely not only because I can't always be with her when she needs me, but also because I can't always be there on the phone. I think she feels this way because, I share those feelings. I hate that I have to do the job I do sometimes. I want her to feel cared for, to feel protected, to feel like she has me to be her support when she needs it, and that she has my full attention whenever and wherever she needs it. But the stresses and pressures of my career, keep me from being there whenever she needs me.

I want to tell her that I am going to keep on trying with everything I have, to be the best Dom, lover, and most importantly, close friend and confidant I can be for her. I don't plan on giving up on her, and I pray that she still doesn't want me to.

"I am responsible. Although I may not be able to prevent the worst from happening, I am responsible for my attitude toward the inevitable misfortunes that darken life. Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have - life itself."

? - Walter Anderson

Runnin on empty, edit....

So, we made a small change, on the first of every month, instead of adding time to the two running sessions, each month she'll just be adding another 10 min session. So in Feb she'll do 3, 10 minute runs with a 1 min break between each, March 4, and April 5.

Runnin on empty....

So for lil b's running schedule, she has given me a starting place, and a goal for her to strive for.

She wants to try and run 3 times a week, 20 minutes of running split into 10 minutes, a 1 min break, and another 10 min. By the end of the summer, her goal is 50 min total. So I'm going to lay out a schedule for her, a punishment and reward system similar to the smoking one. She wants me to be firm with these instructions, both on the smoking and this one, to keep her on track.

Because I have faith in my lil one, the punishments in this plan will be serious as well, but I want to give her some leeway at the beginning to get her into it first.

So without further ado...

Week 1 and 2 (Jan 1st to Jan 15): lil b will be running 3 times a week, but because it may be tough to start with, as long as she does the full 20 min, I won't be a stickler on pattern. If she needs to do it in 5 min spurts, that's ok these first 2 weeks. However, if she is unable to do the full 20 min, she earns a belt strapping for an uninterrupted 5 minutes.

If for some reason she misses a one day in the first 2 weeks, as long as she asks permission, she may miss 1 day. That will be her only chance to skip, so I hope she uses it wisely if she needs to. If in the first 2 weeks she misses a day without permission, or misses one on top of the one she asks for, she gets the same 5 min strapping, but she also gets a full enema and she has to hold it in with the medium butt plug for 10 minutes while standing in the corner.

If she makes it the whole 2 weeks without earning punishment for running AND smoking, she will get the reward laid out in the smoking schedule. I will mention now, that all rewards I've put in place for smoking, will only be earned if she doesn't earn punishments from both schedules.

Week 3 (Jan 15th to Jan 21st): Now, she must do the 20 min in 2, 10 minute increments. If she has to take a break in the 10 min, she receives 25 swats with the thin, whippy metal rod on her breasts. If she doesn't do the full 20 min, she earns the 5 min strapping and the enema. If she misses a day, she gets all three, the rod, the strapping and the enema.

Week 4 (Jan 22nd to Jan 31st): lil b only has to do 3 runs this week, but she will be given extended rest to make up for the short month of Feb coming up where she will have less time to do the same amount of runs. The punishment laid out for week 3 will be the same throughout her running schedule, so I won't repeat it every time. However, on the first of every month, 10 minutes will be added to her daily total required running time, so in Feb she will have to do 2, 15 minute runs, equaling 30 min a day. March 20 minutes, twice, coming to 40 min, and in April 25 min twice, to reach her goal of 50 min.

Little b will continue through to June 1st doing 50 min, at which point we will re-asses and see if she wants to go longer.

I am going to make a few rules here and now as well, first, if she is sick or there is a family tragedy, or she's hurt, or any other unforeseen situation that prevents her from running, its forgiven. As long as she records her missed time and makes it up on other runs. It doesn't have to be all at once, but it has to be made up sometime before June 1st. If for some reason, she decides its too tough, and either needs to cut the time short for a while, or any other change, she will be SEVERELY punished after we discuss her reasons and decide on a new schedule. I don't know what it will be, but it would be along the lines of the last 3 days of her quit smoking schedule. If she decides to quit, and end everything, she may, but not only would she be punished like I mentioned above, I would be very disappointed in her.

Finally, once a week, I want a blog post from her. Describing how the running and the stop smoking plan is going. I want it to include all the times she messes up(if she does) and the punishment that has been earned, and also any comments she has about how things are going with the schedules, etc. Almost like a running/stop smoking weekly journal. The posts are to come on the last day of each scheduled week.

I think that's everything. I also reserve the right to make additions or changes, as needed, and all changes will be discussed with lil b prior to implementation.

Fingers crossed lil one! I know you can do it!

Mulligan cont..

Lol, hit send instead of save....the rest continues

and she may have one of the pieces of jewelry she wanted.

Week 3: a full body massage, and her choice of dinner anywhere in Calgary.

Week 4: She has earned her tattoo if she goes all of Jan smoke free.

I will do another post about her running schedule, shortly.

Mulligan!

Well, lil b has decided she's going to try and quit smoking again, and she wants me to try and help again. Also, she has decided that she wants to start a running schedule. She has already decided on her schedule and goals, and again, its something she feels, I may be able to help motivate her to stay on track.

So we're going go for a "do over." In this part of the post, I will be outlining a punishment/reward schedule as part of her stop smoking plan. Lil b wants to do this cold turkey again, and feels that she will be able to stick with it this time. So, as mentioned above, here's the punishment side of her schedule:

Starting Jan 1st,

Week 1(Jan 1st to Jan 7th): Any full cigarettes smoked by lil b, will earn her 5 uninterrupted minutes with the wooden spoon. All punishments that include "uninterrupted time" will be hard, fast strokes, with no breaks or stoppage in between. If she earns more than one session, there will be a 2 minute rest between sessions.

Any drags, or "halfies" will earn her 3 uninterrupted minutes with the wooden spoon.

Week 2 (Jan 8th to Jan14th): Any full cigarettes will be 5 uninterrupted min with the spoon, and she will pose for 3 photos of my choice, to be posted here. All photos will keep her anonymity, but they will be in any state of undress I choose, and also may include her performing any sexual or taboo act I choose.

Any drags or "halfies" will be 3 uninterrupted min with the spoon, and one photo of my choice to be posted here.

Week 3 (Jan 15th to Jan21st): Any full cigarettes earn 5 uninterrupted min with the spoon, 3 photos of my choice to be posted here, and 1 webcam broadcast to just me, for any length I choose, where she will be directed to perform, in any state of undress I choose, any and all sexual or taboo acts I want.

Any drags or "halfies" will earn 3 uninterrupted min with the spoon, 1 photo of my choice to be posted here, and 1 photo of my choice to be posted on HER blog.

Week 4 (Jan 22 to Jan 29th): Any full cigarettes will earn her 5 uninterrupted min with the spoon, 3 photos of my choice to be posted here, the 1 webcam broadcast just to me, and she will choose 1 person in her kink friendly circle of friends willing to help, to give her ANNOTHER 5 uninterrupted min with an implement of their choosing, from a set list chosen by me, after receiving her first 5 min from me. This person can be anyone she chooses, however, this person may be present when I take the 3 photos for the blog if they wish, and if they want, may participate.

Any drags or "halfies" will earn her 3 uninterrupted min with the spoon, 1 photo for my blog, one photo for hers, and the 3 min with the spoon will be filmed(keeping anonymity) to be posted on "spanking tube dot com"

The end of the month: for her final 3 days in Jan, ANY tobacco use at all will earn her the combined punishments for week 4. All time with the spoon will be filmed for spanking tube.

At the end of January we will re-assess her situation and decide if a continued plan through Feb. If we decide she won't need it, a maintenance plan will be outlined for the rest of the year.

Reward system: If a smoking punishment is earned in the previous week, that reward is carried over to the next.

Week 1: If she goes the whole week totally smoke free, she earns a Bernard Callebaut package of chocolate from me!

Week 2: If she goes all week 1 and 2 smoke free, a trip to the zoo with me, as long as she likes, and she

The truth and the lies Meme.

So, I have read a couple blogs that have done this meme and I think its a pretty cool one. The idea is, I give you all 5 tales about my spanking experience, and only one of em are true. Ya'll get to guess, which of the 5 are true!

1. The most severe marks left by a spanking I've given was, one where I used only my hand.

2. I once bought a strap online, and the day I got it, I lost it.

3. I tried my hardest to give a severe caning, and leave some serious welts, only to end up leaving only a slightly red bottom the next day.

4. I've posted a spanking video I've made online.

5. I once got to give a good bare bottomed spanking to two lovely women at the same time.

Well, there they are folks! Stay tuned for the answers, and comment! Tell your friends to come by and comment!

"Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in
Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove
Dance me to the end of love"

-Leonard Cohen

#1 Crush

/I will burn for you, Feel pain for you,
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart,
And tear it apart

I will lie for you, Beg and steal for you,
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see,
You're just like me/

(Garbage, #1 Crush)

So, I thought I'd start out this post like my lil b does. With a song and lyrics. This particular song, in my "expert" opinion is very kink inspired....I wholly suggest picking up a copy! Garbage as a band, in general, has a few songs that have some very kinky undertones in their lyrics, and their lead singer, Shirley Manson, hot damn! I've had a crush on her since I was in high school! A scottish red head, that sings in an alternative rock band, with kinky lyrics? Yes Please! Lol, sorry lil b...... ;)

Aaaanyway....

Lil b is sick :( she's spent, like all christmas, pukey and exhausted :( I've given her a break from training until she's all better... Such a nice Dom, eh? Lol. she needs it tho, don't want my lil one puking all over her toy when she's practicing suckin! Lol

So, back to the 'ol grindstone after a much needed couple days off work. I'm hoping, in the next couple days, maybe right after New Years, I might be able to make my way down to see her. Its been too long already.

Well, I guess I should get back to work, wouldn't wanna look like a slacker! ;)

Second star to the right, and straight on till morning.

So, I haven't had the chance to call my lil b in a while. I miss her terribly. I am having a nice christmas with the family, but, I am looking forward to seeing her soon. Maybe sometime next week.....

Little b has been such a good girl lately, I'm trying to think of a good reward...

Anyway, merry Christmas all!!

J

I can't believe, we're on the eve....

So, had a pretty rough day yesterday. Dropped the crackberry, big crack in the screen. Good thing I have the insurance plan. Still, $150.00 down the drain. I was all sick last night too. Fever, chills, and puke. Fun.

The big thing tho, my little girl opened up to me more than she ever has before. It was very difficult for her, and she was so afraid. I am still here for her with all my heart. I think she's going to have a little while here where she's going to try and pull back. But I'm not going to let her. I need her to stay as open with me as she can. Its going to put her outside her comfort zone for a little while. But I think she'll come to find its easier for her to be open than not.

She still has a punishment coming for missing training a few days ago. It will include a large enema with corner time, and a soapy mouth and writing lines. After that she has a date with the dreaded wooden spoon.

We've also discovered, lil b is a BIG fan of the cane! She enjoys it a lot, and I'm going to be starting a new blog soon about it. It will be a private one, and all who are members will have to be initiated in. It will be regarding enjoyment of the cane. I am going to be picking up a lovely length of lexan, and I may try and order a real rattan cane online.

I hope everyone has a wonderful christmas.

"our scars remind us that the past is real,
I tear my heart open just to feel"

- Papa Roach (scars)

Crackberry...

Well, I wanted to post, and I tried sending a little congrats email to lil b last night, but apparently the blackberry network was down. Stupid technology ruining my plans! Lol.

I am finally off night shift. But I don't think I'm going to be able to go see my little girl before christmas :( I have a bit of work to do today, and then I have to head north to visit family.

I hope all you lovely readers have a very merry christmas, and I hope you are all off santa's naughty list!

So, little b had some issues regarding the post I requested and I let her off the hook. We may need to have another discussion about communication, but I think she may have learned her lesson already.

Well, maybe I'll be able to make a more intellectually stimulating post later...

J

On the naughty list...

Lil b is in trouble again...the other night as you all saw, I decided to punish her for skipping training without permission. Well, tonight she was told to do a blog update regarding her impending punishment. she didn't do it. She may have forgotten, or she may have just let the time slip by, either way, she's gonna get it tomorrow...

Decisions.

So I have decided little b deserves to be punished for deciding, on her own, to skip training. We have begun her on anal training in addition to her deep throat. This was started because during our last meeting, it was discovered that she is going to need a little practice on that "end". :) so I gave her a simple regime to go along with her 5 min of oral.

Well, she started it the day before yesterday and last night, she made the choice to skip without permission. I know she asked, but without an answer, she was clever enough to know that she should have done it. So, now to tell her. And I will have to decide, also, how I will punish her, and when.

I think this is one I will be taking care of in person. She can't seem to keep from getting herself in trouble...

We will be discussing her penance when she arrives home from the movies tonight, and her training is done. This will be an unpleasant but necessary learning experience for little b. She will learn to follow instructions.

"While we are free to choose our actions, we are not free to choose the consequences of our actions."

?- Stephen R. Covey

All I want for Christmas...

No, I already have 2 front teeth...but a chance to visit my little girl sometime over the holidays would be nice...

I had the chance to chat with lil b, briefly, but I got to hear her voice! Lol, I must be smitten. Just the opportunity to hear her makes my heart smile...

So, last night she was a hurtin and tired lil girl. she had a bit too much to drink with friends the evening before, and because I had no service on loc, I did not get her message, asking if she could skip out on training. So she made the decision herself that because she felt yucky, she would be exempt. I'm weighing the options and trying to decide if she needs to be punished for deciding to go that route. Because we were not in contact, I am going to use some caution here, but if we were in contact I have the feeling I would have told her to do it. Here's the thing tho, I am very happy she did ask. And I won't be punishing her for that. I need her to be open with me and to discuss her mental and physical state so I can make decisions like this. However, the points making me lean toward punishing her are strong too. First, her illness was self induced. she made the choice to have too much to drink, and suffered the consequences the next day, so the fact she was hurtin doesn't really have any bearing on my decision. Second, I have been letting her off her training a little more frequent than I would like, and in order for it to be effective, it needs to be consistent. This is something we discussed, so she knows that its important she does it. And third, she made the choice to not do it herself. she did ask, which I am glad about, but because she didn't receive an answer was not carte blanche to do whatever she wanted. My lil one is a clever girl, and I think she knows that her training is important, and I think she knows I would have most likely told her to do it.

So I am going to be weighing these thoughts for a little while. And making my decision shortly...

"In its function, the power to punish is not essentially different from that of curing or educating."

-  Michel Foucault

Lonely...

Last night at work, my phone died. So not only was I without entertainment during down time, but more importantly, I lost contact with my lil b. It feels like its been ages since I talked to her, and its only been like a day! I'm worried that situations like this, that I happen to find myself in quite often with this job, whether I'm so busy I can't get to my phone, or I'm somewhere without cell service, or dead batteries, etc will begin to push away lil b :(. I care about her deeper than I ever felt possible after knowing someone for such a short time. She seems like the perfect counterpart to me. However, with being a long distance relationship, and having work in the way as well, I'm worried she's going to start to think its too much hassle. I hate thoughts like this. I'm not having a very good day, trying to deal with negative emotions.

"It's the simplest properties that will help you clear yourself of negativity ... The profound power of a simple prayer. The strength of a deep breath. The gentle guidance of good music."

- JEFFREY WANDS

Distance makes the heart grow fonder

I don't know about that. I miss my lil one :(
I've been working night shift the past couple nights. And its been STUPID busy. So I don't have the opportunity to talk as regularly with lil b. I had SUCH an incredible time on Wednesday, and I'm still trying to process everything that happened! Lil b's bottom broke 2 wooden dowels that night! I am not going to go in to details right now, I think that night was too amazing to put into words. I feel like I'm suffering withdrawals from her. I can see the "L" on the horizon, and I'm not sure how to deal with that. Its been only a short time we've been together, and I don't plan on breaking that out any time soon, but things seem like they're on that path, and I'm not sure what to do about it, or how she's gonna take it. I wonder, lil b has never had a long term relationship, and I hope she doesn't drop me! Lol.
I hope to speak to her soon and I would appreciate any comments or suggestions regarding how to hold back, so as not to frighten her away....

J

Antici...................pation!

I can barely sit still today! Goin to see lil b tonight after work, and we're gonna have a real date! Dinner, porn store, caning... Lol, gotta love the differences between vanilla dates and kink dates!

Its gonna be a short post, headed off to work! Woo Hoo! Hurry up day, I wanna get to see my lil girl!

"An intense anticipation itself transforms possibility into reality; our desires being often but precursors of the things which we are capable of performing."

- Samuel Smiles

Santa baby....

So I still have no idea what to get my lil b for christmas. I've decided I wanna get her something vanilla. Lol, not the scent or flavor either...she made me a doily. Lol, stop it! I can see you snickering through the interwebs! She worked hard on it and it turned out wonderfully! I will post a picture of it tomorrow, perched proudly atop the headrest of my car, like a woolen....crown! Lol she's a creative lil girl! And talented!

So she also mentioned a little something on her site. she experienced some pretty wicked pains when I fucked her, only when I pushed in deep. Not to make light of this situation, but I always considered my....."little man" to be of average length and girth. I figured I had enough to not be disappointed but not quite enough to be proud. Well as bad as I felt for her, I can't lie, when I thrust in deep, and she said "ow!" I might have felt a little bit of pride...but only for a second! I swear!

Then I read her update. And I was shot down, lmao, "shallow vagina syndrome". Seriously? SO unfair! Here I was, having daydreams of my lil girl talking with her girlfriends in whispers and her holding her hands apart, "this big!" lmao. Not so, my friends...

Well, dare to dream, right? Lmao

You know what happens when you assume? You make an ass out of you and me!!!

Well, I must say, I definitely don't have a case of the mondays!! Last night after work, I drove into calgary, and picked up lil b, and brought her back to the hotel! We had fun even on the drive there, as I had her pull her pants and panties down while I drove, and she played with her soaked cunt for me! We got to the hotel and got settled.

she knew she had a punishment coming, so we decided to get it out of the way. I pulled her pants and panties down to her knees, and started hand spanking her. She was very squirmy, and I don't think she was as prepared for the sting. I had her find the heavy slotted wooden spoon, and began to lightly swat her already red bum. However, that spoon packs a punch, and even with the light swats, she was unable to stay still. So I moved on, and informed her she would be restrained when I spanked her again.

Because I still needed a shower, I took her by the hand and brought her into the bathroom. It took some pressure, but I finally managed to get her to open her mouth, and I thoroughly washed her mouth out with soap. She was then instructed to bite down, and had to keep it in her mouth while she stood in the corner and I showered. Some interesting dialogue ensued during my shower, and I couldn't help but giggle at my lil girl's predicament.

When I was clean, and had given her some swats on the bare bum, I let her rinse. I love the desperate rinsing when its done, it shows she really learned a lesson!

she was tied to a small ottoman by her wrists and she laid down on a bigger padded stool with her legs spread. I cuffed her ankles, and attached them to the spreader bar under the stool. She got 1 min of wooden spoon, then 5 rod strokes, then another min with the spoon, another 5 with the rod. Then 2 hard min with the spoon, and she couldn't hold back tears anymore. Finished with the last 5 strokes and she was undone. In between rod and spoon, I took the liberty of stroking her spread cunt, and was pleasantly surprised to find her absolutely dripping wet.

Strike two, also!

So, although I've been working nearly every waking moment, I still have found the time to speak with my little girl as often as I can. And last night, she got herself into trouble.

Again, she failed to communicate her needs to me, and decided to not do her required deep throat training. So she again, was thoroughly punished over the phone. I am getting quite upset with this phone thing. I hope to be going to see her this week, and maybe if everything goes well, we'll finally get to meet again!

I hope that this punishment stays in her mind for a little while, and she learned her lesson. I did not want to be overly harsh, however, I hope she realized she realized she deserved it, and I like seeing her smile much more than seeing her cry.

Will keep you all updated!

Very funny lil one...

Last night I almost had the chance to head down and go see lil b, and go to a play party with her! Unfortunately this was not the case, as work, AGAIN, kept me from having the fun I wanted to. I think its about damned time I won the lotto.

I asked b to take a couple of pics for me. One with her face, for me, and a blog friendly one, with no face. Well as you've seen from the silly pic here, lil b decided to be a lil brat! Lol. And NO socks! Its WAY to chilly out there for that!

I miss her terribly. I'm growing quite fond of my lil subbie. I wish I had the opportunity to see her more often. Ahhh, such is life, eh?

I wonder, how many of my readers are canadian?

J

Sad :(

So, yesterday, it looked like today I was gonna have an early day and be able to go see lil b. Unfortunately, this isn't the case. Its gonna be a long one again. I am all sad, cause we had the night all planned out, and now, no more fun. :(

Last night my little girl's cunt was soaking wet. She couldn't keep her fingers from out of her panties, and because we we're talking about all the fun we were gonna have, she couldn't help herself! I wasn't going to let her cum, but she knew just how to beg (she's learning!) and I called her. She was already sopping wet, fucking her naughty little cunt with her big toy. I had her put clips on her nipples, and fuck her tight little ass with her plug. It was not long at all before she was begging me to let her cum. I had her hold off for a little while, but at last, I gave her the release she craved. She even squirted! Good girl!

So its been a while since my last update. Long busy days, and a bit of writers block, make things tough! I never realized how tough it can be sometimes!
I may have little b send a blog friendly naughty pic to perhaps start following natty and padme's HNT(half naked thursday) post. But I may have to do whole naked! Lol.

When I do finally get to see lil b, she has some serious punishment coming, I made the rule to try to help her stop smoking that every drag she had was worth 5 rod strokes or 1 minute with the wooden spoon and 2 minutes corner time with a soapy mouth. She's got up to 17 min with the spoon and 34 min cornertime with the soap. We decided then that obviously it wasn't helping. We will think of a new stop smoking plan for her to begin Jan 1st.

Well, I guess I better blow outta here and get some work done!

"For every disciplined effort there is a multiple reward."

- Jim Rohn

*insert clever blog title here!*

Soooo, lots to tell! First little b is trying to quit smoking! she expressed a desire for me to help, and said she needs to just quit cold turkey, no slowly quitting, so I made the rule, for every single drag(not whole cigarette) she gets 5 strokes from the rod, and 2 minutes in the corner with a soapy mouth. she promptly forgot what was in store if she smoked, and this morning, she had 3 entire cigarettes!! Now, I'm not sure how many drags that equates to, but because she forgot, I decided to start the tally at 25. I have a feeling she will have some difficulty sitting, and may think twice when she has the desire to light up! As far as the mouth washing, we've made a little deal. she has a final exam coming up on wed. If she gets a C or worse, she gets a wooden spoon spanking as well. If she gets an A or better she doesn't have a soapy mouth coming. she has had some difficulty remembering to call me Sir, when necessary, so I may have to figure out a way to "motivate."

Now, here's something interesting! *shifts uncomfortably in my seat* if any of you have read past posts here, you will have seen my desire to re-experience an over the knee, discipline style, bare bottom spanking to tears, so I have something to help me understand things on another level when it comes to my understanding of submissive nature, and the feelings experienced while being punished. Well, b and I discussed this, and she (of course) is ALL for it. Lmao, we agreed that neither of us wants her to be the one to do it, as we believe it may make changes to our dynamic. However, we both also want her to be there for support for me, and to "supervise" and, she has told me she already KNOWS the perfect woman to do it! And she's meeting her for brunch this Saturday!!!! Eeep! Holy crap. Now I'M the one with butterflies in my stomach!!! Any advice?? Lol

I may be able to come down and see b sometime this week. Most likely thurs, if I don't get sent away to work, and we're gonna get a hotel room! she's gonna be one sore lil girl on friday if that happens! Lmao I should be careful what I say, because if things end up going forward the way I think they will, I'm gonna end up being one sore little boy in the near future too!!

Also, (I may get a lickin for this) I went on b's fetlife profile, checked out her friends, and I have a feeling I may know who "She" is... Is snooping a spankable offense?

Well, all your thoughts and advice would be greatly appreciated!

J

sore thighs, sorrier girl. All better now...and SMUT!! Lol

It was a rough day for b. My little one was punished today, for her lack of communication. Little b, was unable to complete her tasks I laid out for her because she failed to tell me she was worried about some things. So instead of telling me and having her deadlines changed, she just decided to not do them.

I did not punish her for failing to complete the tasks. she was much too tired to complete them, and I would not force her to lack sleep. But she told me, without worry, that she could do it all.

This was not the case. So she was punished over the phone. I don't want to get into details, it was a very intense situation. She had to wear nipple clamps, write lines, corner time, she got a wooden spoon spanking on her thighs, and had to redo her deep throat training. A pic was taken, and there were tears. I truly care about her. I don't know how this is, but I'm starting to fall for her. I do tend to fall quick. But never like this. I don't know what to do! I want to take things slow for her, but desperately want to dive in with both feet.

she's doing so well and I'm so proud of her! she does need a firm hand, and a caring touch, but she's everything I could ask for in a little girl. I'm so proud to say she's mine.

Little b has also expressed her desire to please, and wants some pics put up. So without further adieu...

A tough job, but someone's gotta do it

So, last night b was given instructions to do a few things. Although she had a good reason to not do some of it, some of the reason she was unable to complete it, was a lack of planning on her part, and also she failed to voice concerns about her ability to do some of it in time.

One of the things I've tried to instill in b, is for her to know that I'm open to any issues she has with instructions or tasks I give her. I always want her opinion, and her concerns. Ultimately the final decision is mine to make, however, I will always take her concerns into account when making decisions. b failed to voice her concerns about these instructions, and therefore, failed to complete any of the tasks given.

So, today, over the phone, she will be punished. And she will be taking pictures as well. The biggest thing I want her to learn, is to tell me if she cannot complete anything, or has worries she won't be able to.

So I will post again, after everything is done.

J

Aftermath and new beginnings

Today, I've had the chance to have a nice relaxing day due to the psycho weather here. SNOW DAY! Lmao. I have had to chance to chit chat with little b...

I laid out the instructions for her deep throat training. Its not too involved, but should be effective as long as she is diligent about it! It will take her about 15 or 20 minutes a night, and when we see some good improvement, I will move from her smaller cock shaped toy, to something a little bigger, and hopefully, I will be able to give her a "test" in the near future ;)!

I think that we have a good base for our roles, and sexual dynamic. Trust still needs some time to be built up, and we need to set up some starter rules for her to follow as far as the D/s side of things go, but she has agreed to be my sub/little girl officially! And she has decided to accept me as her Dom/Sir. Hopefully I live up to expectations and am qualified to meet the needs of my lil one. (what? Doms are allowed to be introspective and worry sometimes! Lol)

I received another requested photo of b just now. God, is a subby supposed to create such intense feelings of lust in her Dom? I don't know, I've never been so attracted to one particular person before! (lol I should be careful what I write, b reads here and I'll end up makin her head swell!) Lmao she sure makes my "head" swell!! :0 lol

b has another pic to do today, and every day for that matter as part of her training.

@hermione - thank you for the comment! And I did ask her, because the trust thing is still a work in progress, I didn't feel comfortable making that decision on my own. And although she said the decision was mine to make, regarding whether to post her pics or not, I felt and still feel she's not emotionally ready for that. I will post them some day. I want to be sure she is ready.

I have followers!!!!! Omg omg! How freakin kick ass is that?!

Ta Ta for now!

J

"Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future"

- Oscar Wilde

Good morning! Good morning!

All I have to say is WOW. Even though I am drop dead tired today, and even though going to meet little b yesterday added a little over 3 hours of driving to my day, last night was one of the BEST experiences I've ever had, seriously! I'm still so unbelievably excited! Wow. Wow, wow, wow!

Lol, ok, so juicy details....

We met at a nice little irish pub, b was already waiting outside, in piggy tails, as instructed, with a nice top that shows her "assets" as instructed! Good Girl! Uh oh....no skirt... Lol

I commented on this right away, her answer..."I just don't like wearing skirts" lol, so even though she already knew, I informed her she had earned herself a good, bare bottom spanking. We had a couple of beers, and chatted for what seemed like an instant, but ended up being hours! At first, both of us a little nervous, the conversation stayed very vanilla. But after our confidence grew, we discussed our feelings, our past experiences, funny moments, all regarding D/s.

We both have a fine appreciation for sarcasm, which peppered the conversation, quite liberally, lol. We both expressed our love for hockey, and distaste for each others particular fave teams. Lol. Go Oilers!

As the night wore on, I decided it was time. So, b was sent to the bathroom, and emerged a little while later, with clips attached firmly to each nipple, under her bra.

We talked more, and after a little while, the discomfort was really starting to affect her. *wicked grins* lol, I LOVED seeing her gorgeous doe eyes pleading me to let her take them off as she dug her fingers into my hands.

After a little personal sadistic enjoyment of her predicament, I escorted her out to the car. She lifted her shirt and bra for me to remove the clips, which I of course did in a timely fashion, with no playing or flicking or tugging at all! ;) lol

We made our way back into the pub, and continued to talk, I brought up a few fun subjects that gave me the great opportunity to see her blush! And it was decided, she would accept to receive her punishment right then! So, off we went! She took her lickin like a trooper! I used my hand for about 5 minutes, when I realized she is a squirmer! Her hand was pinned behind her back, and I picked up the hairbrush.

Needless to say, it was a glorious evening!! I got to chat with her tonight. No regrets! Lol, yay me! I must have made at least a somewhat decent impression...

Found out, I got some nice sensitive spots with the hairbrush! But she also told me my hand hurt more! Yay me! So much more happened than what I've posted. So much deeper than just a couple beers and a spankin!

"Set your expectations high; find men and women whose integrity and values you respect; get their agreement on a course of action; and give them your ultimate trust."

?-  John Akers

Carpe diem

So, if work cooperates, today is the day. I wonder if b is as antsy and nervous as I am! Everything depends on how long this job today takes, and whether or not I get to stay close to home tonight, or, if they are going to send me away somewhere.

If the cookie crumbles the way I hope it does, I'll be back in Red Deer early enough to get ready, and head to Calgary.

Now, if everything works out.
We will be meeting at a little pub in the SW. b has a small list of instructions she has to follow (to kind of establish our roles early in the relationship, if that's what it ends up being!lol)
she is to wear a skirt no longer than knee length, no panties. A top that is a bit revealing(not too much, as she is quite "chesty" lol) and her hair is to be in pig tails.
I haven't told her this yet, but, she is to bring her small butt plug, and a couple clothes pins as well. When we have had the chance to chat for a little while, and maybe have a drink, she will be given a choice. I will send her to the bathroom, and when she returns, she is to either have the plug in, or the clamps securely placed on her nipples. If she chooses the clamps, my observation of her discomfort will dictate the length of time she is to wear them. However, if she chooses the plug...I told her that some time in the evening I will be making sure she followed her instructions. This means I will be checking to see she refrained from wearing panties. She has told me, she won't be wearing a skirt(this will mean she has a spanking coming!) so some time, I'm thinking at the end of the night, I will be undoing, and pulling her pants down to her knees. At this time, I will obviously be able to see if she chose to follow instruction and go without panties. Also, this is when I will remove the plug for her.

We have not decided if any punishment she earns will come tonight, or if we will refrain from play as this is our first meeting. If our feelings our mutual, and the desire to play takes us, I feel this will be the perfect time to give her a good, hard, bare bottom spanking. I will start with my hand, and if she's earned it, she may get more with the paddle style wooden hairbrush I have.

I have made the decision that b is not ready for me to post the pictures I have of her here. I want her to have the trust in me that I will not compromise her values or her anonymity. So I do apologize to all those who are looking forward to it, but perhaps in time...

"Character is doing the right thing when nobody's looking.  There are too many people who think that the only thing that's right is to get by, and the only thing that's wrong is to get caught."

  ~J.C. Watts

Time flies when...

Last night b and I had quite the experience! So, first of all, I received 2 wonderful topless pictures of her, and with those I came to realize a couple things. First of all, she is quite self conscious of her naked body, it took some great will power on her part to get up the nerve to actually hit send and give me those pics. Second, my little b has AMAZING tits! Holy crap! I nearly fell of my chair when I received the pictures! So, I will be posting one of those photos here in the near future, however, I am going to let her get used to the idea that although I will not compromise her anonymity, her beautiful naked feminine body will be exposed for all to see here. I need her trust that I will be careful in what I show, and what I don't, so I am going to wait a little while for this trust to develop before I post her beauty for all to see.

Speaking of trust...
Las night we had some fun over the phone! This was a night of many firsts. First time I heard b's pretty voice, first time I've seen her naked breasts, and the first time I heard her orgasm.

She was first given the choice on whether or not she wanted to agree to what I had in store. I did not tell her what I would have her do, only that she would have to trust me that I would not hurt or embarrass her. She agreed, and I gave her a list of instructions, and when she was ready, I would call.

b brought with her to her bedroom along with her phone, her vibe, her small butt plug, some lube, and a few clothes pins. When I phoned, b was directed to her knees, and over the following hour (which seemed like no time at all) she was instructed to use the variety of toys she laid out at my discretion. Before I called I had planned to bring her to the edge of orgasm, but to deny her the pleasure, and let her wait till our next chat to have release. However, I decided that the thing I wanted to teach her, wasn't so much that I wanted control of her pleasure(I do!) but instead I wanted to give her a chance to get a little more comfortable with experiencing pleasure in my presence and to enjoy giving me control over her body. she was audibly nervous, and felt a bit exposed, but slowly as the sensation of being on her knees for me, and experiencing the sensation of pleasure while under my direction. I was very pleased with her ability to follow instructions, and over that short hour, b came for me quite a few times! The sound of her excitement was too much for me to sit and listen, and I was able to bring myself to orgasm in short order as well! Although I felt the whole experience was very pleasing, and she more than exceeded my expectations, I do have one bit of criticism regarding the experience. This was partially my fault at not giving her the direction to do this, but I wanted to see if she would do it on her own. When we meet, one of her instructions is that if the situation permits, she is to refer to me as Sir. This is of course depending on who is within earshot. Last night while I directed her, I gave a couple subtle hints to have her use this word. However, she did not. I did not make any suggestion or rule that this was expected so I am not going to take any corrective measures, however, in the future, I may have to do just that.

I thoroughly enjoyed the whole experience, and plan on doing it again in the near future! And if things go well with my work, we may end up having that first meeting some time very soon!

"There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so."

- Shakespeare, from Hamlet

Tuesday's child is full of grace.

Sooooo, conversation with b has turned to "when" we meet, from "if" we meet! I have the green light on posting naughty details regarding our conversations, and meetings. Also, depending on what she chooses to be the lesser of two evils, I may have some smut photos to post! I gave her the option to either pose topless outside in this wintery frostiness for a photo for my personal viewing pleasure, or, to take 2 photos that are anonymous enough for blog posting, but still feature her gorgeous naked breasts, and another, that I will keep as a surprise!

In our conversations, b has expressed interest in a couple training regimes I'd like to implement. The first is anal training. she has told me she enjoyed the little bit of anal play she has experienced, and if she is to be my little one I'd like to have her ready and willing to offer her ass to me whenever I want to take it.

The second is deep throat training. I do thoroughly enjoy oral, and I'd love to grab on to b's long hair and fuck her mouth. And as much as I do enjoy gagging, the puking....not so much. Lol, so, if things go as planned, we are going to set up some daily exercises to help with these two things.

There are some other things we've talked about that may be explored. Bathroom control, and perhaps removal of that being a private act. Orgasm denial and control, I think having the say on when and how and where she cums will be wonderful! The other thing is blogging. Not mine, but she has a blog as well, and I may have her post a little more often. Its been a month! I think something needs to be done there! Lol.

I really hope I'm not getting ahead of myself with any of this, and if our first meeting goes well, I hope things work out well.

b also has some wardrobe instructions for our first meeting, and she has already told me she won't be following them all! We've also agreed that not following these instructions to the letter will result in a spanking! So, I have a pretty good suspicion that she's gonna end up bare bottomed over my knee in the near future as well!

"Nobody succeeds beyond his or her wildest expectations unless he or she begins with some wild expectations."

? - Ralph Charell

I wanna shoot, shoo-oo-oo-oo-oot the whole, day, down...

So my conversations with b have been getting more interesting and fun by the second. And if I'm reading things right, I may end up having this adorable young lady bottoms up in the near future!

As much as I would like to post about some of the naughtier things we've spoken about, I have made the decision to wait for her permission to post regarding "us".

I will say, that if things end up heading the direction I hope they do, my little corner of the web will no longer be smut free! Woot woot! Lol. Nothin like some pics of a freshly paddled bottom to spice up the ol blog eh?

Well, I think its finally time to saw some logs here, gonna need my energy to continue the playful banter with b tomorrow! Lol, I have a feeling this girl is going to need my full and undivided attention, she's quick, and witty. And I sense a bratty side lurking not to far away....

"If you can make a girl laugh - you can make her do anything."

- Marilyn Monroe