Errrr, ummm, *blush*

Hey kiddies! So I had a pretty interesting conversation with a spanko/DD friend of mine. I couldn't help but giggle at the thought of something she had to do recently. Well, she's been seeking a partner in the spanking scene for a long time now, with varied success. Recently, she started a new job, and a guy there, a vanilla guy, took an interest in her. So, with some soul searching, she decided to take a shot and they started dating. Things were going splendidly, however, she had to keep her spanko tendencies on the down low, until she was comfortable with him enough to reveal that side of her. She dropped a few hints here and there over the next few months, and she even ended up going to a spanking gathering, and told him. He was a little taken aback, but he misunderstood. She is a bottom. He assumed she was going to be spanking him... Lol, rather amusing. But, nothing really came of it. She cleared up the misunderstanding, and he dropped the subject. Now, everything came to a head yesterday, when she made the decision that she had to have discipline in her life, and she was going to let him know everything. *gulp*

Now, I haven't heard what the outcome was, yet, but she decided last night, they were going to be having an open and honest discussion about her particular needs. This situation made me giggle a bit. I told her I could see how it would play out. Her = GF Him = BF.

"hey, um BF, can I talk to you about something?" of course GF! What do you need? "wellllllllll, remember that, um, gathering I went to, um, a few weeks ago?" which one? The work meeting? "errr no, the, uh, spanking one.....*blush*" Ohhhh, right......yea....what about it? "welllllll, ahem.....I, ummm, wanted to talk to you, you know, about, well what I mean to say is, errrr......well I like....um..it, spanking... *blush even more*" ohhhhhkaaaay... Like you want me to, like, *blush*, spank your butt when we, you know......have sex? "*cough* well.....um.....not exactly....." *eyebrow raise* well, what DID you mean? "*palms sweating profusely now* well, there's this community, that I'm sort of part of, and we like, well not LIKE like, but we need, like, to have structure and, uh discipline, and, well there's a website...well there's actually lots of websites, and ummm you know how when you were a kid, and you did something bad, and you got.....you know....a spanking?" yeaaaah... "well, I, well not JUST I, er, me, there's lots of us, and its not like whips and chains, you know, *wants floor to open up and swallow her*, its like, when I need, like help with things, errr well more like when I've done something wrong....well I find if, *Gulp* someone punishes me for it, I learn better......you know?".........

This is kind of how I pictured the start of this conversation going. Lmao! I couldn't help but giggle profusely. I think we need one of those pamphlets, like they have in junior high school guidance counselor offices about STD's and teen pregnancy, for spankos coming out to vanilla folk. It would have a picture of a hairbrush on it, and in big purple letters it would say "So you're partner likes spanking..." inside the pamphlet it would explain the whole thing, in an easy to understand way, describing every nuance about the lifestyle and a little description on how to go about incorporating it into your life. Lol, maybe even little diagrams on positions and techniques.....

Lol. Well, as I try to date only kink friendly people, I haven't had to try and explain domestic discipline to a significant other. What about you? Any experiences in trying to explain your kinks to vanilla folk?

Lemee know!

Jesse

Implements

Hidey ho neighborinos! Well, I actually got off at a relatively decent hour yesterday, and after having a great conversation with a close friend, I headed over to Superstore to check out some implements she mentioned for a discount price! She told me about a few bath brushes she picked up on sale. I found the ones she got and unfortunately they weren't on sale. She got em for $2.99 each! They we're $8, and particularly wicked looking... But all was not lost. I poked around, and ended up discovering there were some different ones on for $4 a piece, so I grabbed a couple, and a hairbrush I've been looking for. My purchase was only $18 and I got 3 new toys! Woot! The two bath brushes look like they were specifically designed to discipline a young lady, and I wonder about the short handled one, I don't think you could even use it as a bath brush, because you couldn't reach anywhere with it! But, as a spanking implement, its just perfect! I'm actually pretty excited to try em out!

Well, that's all for now, Ta Ta!

Jesse

That which does not kill me, is only an epic pain in the ass.

All work and no play makes Jesse a dull boy. Also, makes him edgier and more easily sexually excited than a 17 year old boy in an all girls gym class....

*pout* I haven't even SEEN a good beating in ages. Let alone actually participate in one. I know I know, its my own damned fault. Its actually kind of funny sometimes. Even the innuendo of spanking or kink sends my mind off on some elaborate kink-themed, sexual daydream tangent. Srsly. Its getting rather frustrating, but at least I know the sexual arousal centers of my brain still work.

I was leafing through the news paper at work yesterday, and happened across a flyer for Zellers. Randomly flipping through it, while sitting at the shop, waiting for my turn to get into one of the service bays, when I flipped to a page saying something like some of their bath and beauty products were on sale. Lo and behold a picture of a particularly innocent looking bath brush. *snap* mind races, cock hard, uncomfortably adjusting my quickly tenting coveralls, the scene unfolded in my mind. Straight backed chair, panties lowered to knee height, snap of the bath brush on tender, unprotected skin, corner time, scolding....is it hot in here? Desperately wanting to free the growing problem in my pants. Readjust, but take a little longer in doing so, letting my grip linger on that over sensitive and under stimulated part of my body....

*BANG BANG* a knock on my truck door. "hey, Jess, you can roll into the bay now." You know you're in a bad spot when a Zellers flyer can nearly bring you to orgasm.

Bah.

Jesse

Remembrance Day

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
      Between the crosses, row on row,
   That mark our place; and in the sky
   The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
   Loved and were loved, and now we lie,
         In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
   The torch; be yours to hold it high.
   If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
         In Flanders fields.

Work. Bane of my existence.

Dear Work,

You made me miss my Blogiversary. Please feel free to fuck off now.

Regards,

J

Blogiversary eve

Well tomorrow, I will have been a blogger for exactly 1 year! It feels so much longer than that, I've learned so much, met so many fantastic people, and I think I've had more person to person kink contact in this one year, than any other year of my life. I'd like to thank every single one of my readers. I know I don't get to post as often as I'd like, and you have no idea how much I apriciate those who comment, and Lurkers alike. Briar, Padme, Celine, Hermione, and Bonnie, my blogging experience would have been a much shorter one, had it not been for your continued support. Thank you for showing me how fun it can be to write, and also, I consider you all friends. I hope, the next year is as fun as this one has been, and I hope I get to make even more incredible friends like you! For tomorrow, I WILL be posting again, and I want to know, what would you like to see here? Anything at all! Pictures? A story? Let me know!

Hugs everyone!

J

Re-exploration

Well, I'm back. I don't want to stop, but should I stop apologizing for extended absences here? I feel like I'm starting every post saying I'm sorry for not posting often enough. Feedback pls....

Well, I've been chatting with a new friend as of late. I'll call her......."t", and she's very new. Not new as far as interest goes, she's been exploring her "kinkyness" since she was a teen (younger if you count the stuff we all did, like looking up the word spanking in the dictionary and getting that "funny feeling" down there.) But, she's just begun to explore in the "real world." She explained that she's been exploring the net for it for a long time, and chatting on the phone, but not much as far as real life play and discovery goes. Its really kind of odd, but very cool and interesting hearing about her likes and dislikes. Lol, she still has that sense of naiveté and unnecessary shame, regarding her feelings. Its tough, but I'm trying to have her open up to me, and share her feelings, but I really do remember that feeling of nervous worry that your confidant will find your particular kink to be odd, or funny, or they'll ridicule you for being into it. :( I still get that worry every once in a while, I wonder if it really truly goes away.... She's FINALLY (after much goading and pleading) confessed her strong interest in age play and AB/DL to me. SO COOL! I've discussed this with people online, but never had the glorious opportunity to play and discuss person to person. Its really quite a turn on, and the fact that I find age play and spanking to be such a strong interest, its not really all that surprising that I like this too. I've seen a few pics on Fet of "littles" and they've always given me that wonderful tingle when I see em. I'm very excited to explore this further!

I met with t yesterday afternoon briefly, and I brought her a soother. If she gives me permission, I'll totally post a pic of her with it, its so adorable! :D but, this is one of those times where her anonymity is my primary desire, so no pics till permission. *nods*

Well, off to work. Talk to you all later!

J