Uh oh...

She hasn't read it yet, but the first twitter post I saw after mine was a link here: http://bit.ly/e9W922

Suddenly I remembered a quote from Star Wars
Luke: "I'm not afraid!" Yoda: "Oh, you will be. You will be."

*gulp*

A picture tells a thousand words *actual pictures not included*

So, I've been neglecting the spanking/kink side of myself lately. This has a direct impact on the content of my Blog. Seriously, when was the last time I blogged about spanking or kink? *hangs head in shame*

To make it up to you, I'm gonna post some pictures. Honestly, what I'd like to do, is go meet with little b and have her give ME a spanking and take some shots of me over her knee, or in the corner. I don't feel the bottomy urge very often, but I think some discipline is exactly what the doctor ordered. I'm not really sure how to broach the subject with her, I think if I asked nice she'd be more than willing, she definitely has a strong sadistic side! And normally I would just ask her to beat me a little, but we've not had the chance to chat lately, so I don't want to make her feel obligated, or impose, or whatever, etc... She reads here from time to time, so I'm sure I'll be getting a message from her in one form or another...lol. Actually, lil b's sadistic side can be scary sometimes! She really shows her enjoyment when she's administering ouchies, and it can be a little........nerve wracking!

OH YA! I totally got an update about my friend who came out as spanko to her vanilla BF! <-- http://musingsofadiscipliner.blogspot.com/2010/11/errrr-ummm-blush.html

Things are going swimmingly, apparently he's taken to spanking like a duck to water! Lmao! I could almost see her squirm in her seat as I read her message! :D I told her I'd love the chance to chat with him about corner time and mouth soaping.....her reply?

"Well he is busy enough keeping track of all my smart ass comments and such. And no he does not need to learn about that other stuff. Lol"

Sounds to me like that's exactly what he needs to learn about! ;)

So, if little b agrees, I'll give you some pics, and even if she doesn't, maybe, if you're well behaved girls and boys, I'll post some......."revealing" pictures if you'd like. Random penis pics? Sure! Nude shots? If you'd like! I'm in an exhibitionsty mood, so take advantage and make a request!

Well, ttyl folks!

J

Yaaaaaawn

Good morning! Welcome to the patch. Its 3:30am here. I was up at 2:30, got my crack....er....coffee, and headed off to work.

I is smart. Last night, when I left the shop, I set my "Webasto Heater" to come on at 3am (webasto heater - diesel burning engine heater with a timer) and my truck is already nice and warm. I will be heading out to location at around 5, and I may have an early day again! *beams*

Awwww! Crap! *head desk* I forgot rule #1 of the oil patch. "NEVER anticipate a positive outcome out loud. It will always jinx you and the negative outcome will happen." dangit now its gonna be a long day.

Bah.

J

Looks like SOMEBODY'S got a case of the MONDAYS!

Well, after a short stint in camp, on the 24th of Nov I got a call from family to head home. After a few years of progressively failing health, my grandmother passed away at the age of 85. Of course we were all saddened to hear the news, but its been a long time coming, and we had prepared ourselves for the inevitable. Her passing means I have only one grandparent left, and his health is not that good either. Its odd, situations like this, rather than make me sad, tend to push me toward contemplating my own mortality, along with making me think and apriciate the experiences of someone who's lived for that long. My grandmother was born on a Saskatchewan farm in 1925. This means she lived through things I cannot even begin to imagine! She would have been 4 years old at the beginning of the great depression. At the age of 11 the first television broadcast began and at 13 was the first color TV broadcast. At 14 she'd have seen the start of WWII. At 25 the Korean war broke out and at 29 she'd have seen the start of the Vietnam war. She was 36 when the Berlin Wall was built, and the soviets launched the first man into space. At 38 she'd have seen the assassination of JFK. At 39 Civil Rights Act passed in the U.S, and Nelson Mandela was sentenced to life in prison. At 43 Martin Luther King Jr. was assassinated. At 44 Neil Armstrong walked on the moon, at 45 computer floppy discs were created, and at 47 the Watergate scandal happened. At 52 Elvis died and Star Wars debuts! At 53 John Paul became pope, and finally at 54, the year I was born, 1980, she experienced the eruption of Mount St. Helens and the assassination of John Lennon.

It makes me wonder, what incredible world events are in store for me. At my age, when she was 30, James Dean died and Disneyland opened.

Well, I guess I should get to work now, I hope to talk to you all again soon!

J

Blech. Srsly.

gah. It snowed yesterday. Actually, the term "snowed" is a little bit of an understatement. On Monday, it was a beautiful fall evening. I actually saw green grass on my way home from work. Srsly. Then I woke up on Tuesday morning, and it was like old man winter took a great big Shit all over the place. It truly is as disgusting as it sounds. My job on Tuesday was shut down, more so to let everyone else realize they needed to change their driving style from amateur nascar driver to grandma. I think they said on the radio that there was over 200 accidents in the city of Calgary alone. Happens every winter. And to those of you that actually LIKE this shite, I'm looking at you lil b....ya'll should be locked up.

Woke up this morning with the perfect side dish to surprise winter, yup, the flu. Life, she ees grand, non?

Just now, the pumper on location shat the bed, so we had to rig it out, they're sending another one out from Drumheller to finish the job. So much for early days when I'm sick. *eye roll*

I heard from my spanko friend who came clean to her very vanilla bf, about her need for domestic discipline. Baby steps. Lol. He doesn't own a computer (wtf? Right? Dark ages much?) so that may be why, when it comes to kink, he's so sheltered... But anyway, he slapped her butt while they were.....you know.......doing it. And he even called her a "naughty girl!" How cool is that? Perhaps he has the Domly gene, and just hasn't had the opportunity to explore it? Either that or its just a known fact that whilest swatting a young lady's bared bottom, the appropriate thing to say is "you've been a naughty girl," and its instinctive to do so for vanilla and spanko alike....hmmmm a spanking instinct....interesting....thoughts?

Well. Back to the grindstone. Ttyl folks!

Jesse

Errrr, ummm, *blush*

Hey kiddies! So I had a pretty interesting conversation with a spanko/DD friend of mine. I couldn't help but giggle at the thought of something she had to do recently. Well, she's been seeking a partner in the spanking scene for a long time now, with varied success. Recently, she started a new job, and a guy there, a vanilla guy, took an interest in her. So, with some soul searching, she decided to take a shot and they started dating. Things were going splendidly, however, she had to keep her spanko tendencies on the down low, until she was comfortable with him enough to reveal that side of her. She dropped a few hints here and there over the next few months, and she even ended up going to a spanking gathering, and told him. He was a little taken aback, but he misunderstood. She is a bottom. He assumed she was going to be spanking him... Lol, rather amusing. But, nothing really came of it. She cleared up the misunderstanding, and he dropped the subject. Now, everything came to a head yesterday, when she made the decision that she had to have discipline in her life, and she was going to let him know everything. *gulp*

Now, I haven't heard what the outcome was, yet, but she decided last night, they were going to be having an open and honest discussion about her particular needs. This situation made me giggle a bit. I told her I could see how it would play out. Her = GF Him = BF.

"hey, um BF, can I talk to you about something?" of course GF! What do you need? "wellllllllll, remember that, um, gathering I went to, um, a few weeks ago?" which one? The work meeting? "errr no, the, uh, spanking one.....*blush*" Ohhhh, right......yea....what about it? "welllllll, ahem.....I, ummm, wanted to talk to you, you know, about, well what I mean to say is, errrr......well I like....um..it, spanking... *blush even more*" ohhhhhkaaaay... Like you want me to, like, *blush*, spank your butt when we, you know......have sex? "*cough* well.....um.....not exactly....." *eyebrow raise* well, what DID you mean? "*palms sweating profusely now* well, there's this community, that I'm sort of part of, and we like, well not LIKE like, but we need, like, to have structure and, uh discipline, and, well there's a website...well there's actually lots of websites, and ummm you know how when you were a kid, and you did something bad, and you got.....you know....a spanking?" yeaaaah... "well, I, well not JUST I, er, me, there's lots of us, and its not like whips and chains, you know, *wants floor to open up and swallow her*, its like, when I need, like help with things, errr well more like when I've done something wrong....well I find if, *Gulp* someone punishes me for it, I learn better......you know?".........

This is kind of how I pictured the start of this conversation going. Lmao! I couldn't help but giggle profusely. I think we need one of those pamphlets, like they have in junior high school guidance counselor offices about STD's and teen pregnancy, for spankos coming out to vanilla folk. It would have a picture of a hairbrush on it, and in big purple letters it would say "So you're partner likes spanking..." inside the pamphlet it would explain the whole thing, in an easy to understand way, describing every nuance about the lifestyle and a little description on how to go about incorporating it into your life. Lol, maybe even little diagrams on positions and techniques.....

Lol. Well, as I try to date only kink friendly people, I haven't had to try and explain domestic discipline to a significant other. What about you? Any experiences in trying to explain your kinks to vanilla folk?

Lemee know!

Jesse

Implements

Hidey ho neighborinos! Well, I actually got off at a relatively decent hour yesterday, and after having a great conversation with a close friend, I headed over to Superstore to check out some implements she mentioned for a discount price! She told me about a few bath brushes she picked up on sale. I found the ones she got and unfortunately they weren't on sale. She got em for $2.99 each! They we're $8, and particularly wicked looking... But all was not lost. I poked around, and ended up discovering there were some different ones on for $4 a piece, so I grabbed a couple, and a hairbrush I've been looking for. My purchase was only $18 and I got 3 new toys! Woot! The two bath brushes look like they were specifically designed to discipline a young lady, and I wonder about the short handled one, I don't think you could even use it as a bath brush, because you couldn't reach anywhere with it! But, as a spanking implement, its just perfect! I'm actually pretty excited to try em out!

Well, that's all for now, Ta Ta!

Jesse

That which does not kill me, is only an epic pain in the ass.

All work and no play makes Jesse a dull boy. Also, makes him edgier and more easily sexually excited than a 17 year old boy in an all girls gym class....

*pout* I haven't even SEEN a good beating in ages. Let alone actually participate in one. I know I know, its my own damned fault. Its actually kind of funny sometimes. Even the innuendo of spanking or kink sends my mind off on some elaborate kink-themed, sexual daydream tangent. Srsly. Its getting rather frustrating, but at least I know the sexual arousal centers of my brain still work.

I was leafing through the news paper at work yesterday, and happened across a flyer for Zellers. Randomly flipping through it, while sitting at the shop, waiting for my turn to get into one of the service bays, when I flipped to a page saying something like some of their bath and beauty products were on sale. Lo and behold a picture of a particularly innocent looking bath brush. *snap* mind races, cock hard, uncomfortably adjusting my quickly tenting coveralls, the scene unfolded in my mind. Straight backed chair, panties lowered to knee height, snap of the bath brush on tender, unprotected skin, corner time, scolding....is it hot in here? Desperately wanting to free the growing problem in my pants. Readjust, but take a little longer in doing so, letting my grip linger on that over sensitive and under stimulated part of my body....

*BANG BANG* a knock on my truck door. "hey, Jess, you can roll into the bay now." You know you're in a bad spot when a Zellers flyer can nearly bring you to orgasm.

Bah.

Jesse

Remembrance Day

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
      Between the crosses, row on row,
   That mark our place; and in the sky
   The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
   Loved and were loved, and now we lie,
         In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
   The torch; be yours to hold it high.
   If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
         In Flanders fields.

Work. Bane of my existence.

Dear Work,

You made me miss my Blogiversary. Please feel free to fuck off now.

Regards,

J

Blogiversary eve

Well tomorrow, I will have been a blogger for exactly 1 year! It feels so much longer than that, I've learned so much, met so many fantastic people, and I think I've had more person to person kink contact in this one year, than any other year of my life. I'd like to thank every single one of my readers. I know I don't get to post as often as I'd like, and you have no idea how much I apriciate those who comment, and Lurkers alike. Briar, Padme, Celine, Hermione, and Bonnie, my blogging experience would have been a much shorter one, had it not been for your continued support. Thank you for showing me how fun it can be to write, and also, I consider you all friends. I hope, the next year is as fun as this one has been, and I hope I get to make even more incredible friends like you! For tomorrow, I WILL be posting again, and I want to know, what would you like to see here? Anything at all! Pictures? A story? Let me know!

Hugs everyone!

J

Re-exploration

Well, I'm back. I don't want to stop, but should I stop apologizing for extended absences here? I feel like I'm starting every post saying I'm sorry for not posting often enough. Feedback pls....

Well, I've been chatting with a new friend as of late. I'll call her......."t", and she's very new. Not new as far as interest goes, she's been exploring her "kinkyness" since she was a teen (younger if you count the stuff we all did, like looking up the word spanking in the dictionary and getting that "funny feeling" down there.) But, she's just begun to explore in the "real world." She explained that she's been exploring the net for it for a long time, and chatting on the phone, but not much as far as real life play and discovery goes. Its really kind of odd, but very cool and interesting hearing about her likes and dislikes. Lol, she still has that sense of naiveté and unnecessary shame, regarding her feelings. Its tough, but I'm trying to have her open up to me, and share her feelings, but I really do remember that feeling of nervous worry that your confidant will find your particular kink to be odd, or funny, or they'll ridicule you for being into it. :( I still get that worry every once in a while, I wonder if it really truly goes away.... She's FINALLY (after much goading and pleading) confessed her strong interest in age play and AB/DL to me. SO COOL! I've discussed this with people online, but never had the glorious opportunity to play and discuss person to person. Its really quite a turn on, and the fact that I find age play and spanking to be such a strong interest, its not really all that surprising that I like this too. I've seen a few pics on Fet of "littles" and they've always given me that wonderful tingle when I see em. I'm very excited to explore this further!

I met with t yesterday afternoon briefly, and I brought her a soother. If she gives me permission, I'll totally post a pic of her with it, its so adorable! :D but, this is one of those times where her anonymity is my primary desire, so no pics till permission. *nods*

Well, off to work. Talk to you all later!

J