"We are either kings or pawns of men" - Napoleon Bonaparte

So, I'm sitting on location with nothing to do. So I watched a movie! I've seen this movie many times, and it still never fails to entertain. Very well done. I wonder, from the pic, and the quote, can my loyal readers deduce the title of one of my fave movies?

I'm sure with google its a matter of seconds before you figure it out. But, I guess such is the world we live in!

Well, take care all!

J

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.” - James Dean

So, I didn't really have anything to Blog about, but I really needed to chat with the readers. Its quite nice to just stand up on the soap box and quietly bask in the feeling that even when there's nothing to say, there are people listening.

I'm tired. Not just sleepy, I feel old. Worn out. Like the world is in the process of chewing me up like over cooked meat. The days string along like paper dolls, hand in hand as separate entities, but, inevitably still connected eternally. Its nice sometimes, I do have fleeting moments of joy, sleeping in on a day off, seeing a particular piece of countryside that speaks to me like a good book, hearing a great Stewart McLean story on the CBC's Vinyl Cafe (today at noon mountain time!), moments of peace or anger, or motivation, or heartbreak while hearing a moving piece of music.

These moments are few and far between. I want to feel like a boy again. The curiosity and wonder. The feeling of play. The ecstasy of youth. It seems like I haven't had that feeling of wonderfully chaotic excitement in too long.

Well, now that I've thoroughly depressed you all, lol, I'll take my leave of you. Keep smiling! ;)

Tomorrow

The sun'll come out tomorrow,
Bet your bottom dollar that
tomorrow,
there'll be sun!
Just thinking about tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs and
the sorrow till there's none.

When I'm stuck with a day
that's gray and lonely,
I just stick out my chin
and grin and say:

Oh! The sun'll come out tomorrow
So you got to hang on till tomorrow
come what may!

Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow,
you're always a day away!
Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow,
you're only a day away!
Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow,
you're always a day away!

- Lea Salonga

Fly the Aryan skies. Not.

So, I don't know if you've followed this story of hateful malice against the general public, but its struck a chord with me, and I hope all you fellow bloggers will join the fight against this spiteful, tactless corporation. The incredible movie director Kevin Smith was placed in an unbelievably embarrassing situation because of some horribly misguided staff members of this company. To make matters worse, they not only refused to accept responsibility for their actions, they lied to their paying customers and the general public.

I urge you to take some time out of your day and go to www.smodcast.com and watch the archived episodes 106 and 107. Another example of a large corporation with too much power, trying to beat down the little guy. Please make mention of this if you can, and show this company that this is the kind of actions that the public will not tolerate.

"you're going to find that many of the truths we cling to depend greatly on our own point of view." —Obi-Wan Kenobi

O.M.G.

I was chatting with a good friend on msn this morning after leaving work, as they don't need me out there right now, and we had a really nice short chat about life and whats going on with things right now. Some of you may read her blog, as it has been mentioned in The Globe and Mail, the book "the Peep Diaries", "the Walrus" magazine, CBC Radio, and she's been nominated for years for numerous Bloggers choice awards. Thats right, i cant believe it either, i'm friends with a famous person!!!

So anyway Im talking to Padme http://darkside-journey.blogspot.com/
and she decided it was time for her to head out and do a post. A few moments later, she came back on and asked me if I, little ol me!, would like a Star Wars name???!! Dude! So cool! She asked what one i'd like, and I told he she could choose, and, wouldn't you know it, she chose the COOLEST character for me! Obi-Wan Kenobi!!! AAAAAND, she mentioned me on HER famous blog!!! BAD ASS!!!

So I want ALLLL of you who read her to go here

http://bloggerschoiceawards.com/blogs/show/33526

http://bloggerschoiceawards.com/blogs/show/33525

http://bloggerschoiceawards.com/blogs/show/33524

and vote for her!! GO! NOW!, I'll wait!!!






now that youve gone and voted (not voting is a spankable offence!!) i'll let yall enjoy and bask in the glory that is padme and Anakin/Darth Vader!!!

still freaking out here!!!! lol woot woot!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnjaUoR15dU

I'm half the man I used to be. This I feel as the dawn. It fades to grey.

So, sitting on location, in stupid Saskatchewan again. I would much rather be getting up at 2 in the morning back in red deer, than having to work out in this shit hole some more...

Little b went to Realm last night, been following her tweets and chatting with her. Lol, sounds like she had fun! I wish I coulda gone! It sounded like so much fun!

I am gonna be taking the leftover 4 feet of lexan rod and cutting it in half when I get home. I am gonna polish it up and make a handle for the 2 of them. One I've promised to b, she really enjoys it! And the other, I'm not sure. I have a 3 foot one still, that I'll be cutting down to 2 and a half, and I want to give the extra one to someone who will get some good use out of it. Any takers? I plan to make a nice handle, but I haven't decided how or with what. I was thinking about picking up some leather and making a nice braided handle, but I've never done that before and I'm not sure how. I was thinking of maybe using some nice red twine too, not sure how that would work out tho....any suggestions? I may even hold a contest or something with the prize being the homemade cane and a homemade paddle and maybe some other fun home made toys! Thoughts?

J

Adam: What are your qualifications?

Betelgeuse: Ah. Well... I attended Juilliard... I'm a graduate of the Harvard business school. I travel quite extensively. I lived through the Black Plague and had a pretty good time during that. I've seen the EXORCIST ABOUT A HUNDRED AND SIXTY-SEVEN TIMES, AND IT KEEPS GETTING FUNNIER EVERY SINGLE TIME I SEE IT... NOT TO MENTION THE FACT THAT YOU'RE TALKING TO A DEAD GUY... NOW WHAT DO YOU THINK? You think I'm qualified?

"No one plans to take the road that leads you lower."

Well, when I first heard this song, I thought it was ok, but after actually listening to the lyrics, I've decided its quite poignant.

Your Decision - Alice in Chains

Time to change has come and gone
Watched your fears become your god
It's your decision
It's your decision

Overwhelmed, you chose to run
Apathetic to the stunned
It's your decision
It's your decision

You feed the fire that burned us all
When you lie
To feel the pain that spurs you on
Black inside

No one plans to take the path that brings you lower
And here you stand before us all and say it's over
It's over

It might seem an afterthought
Yes, it hurts to you know you're bought
It's your decision
It's your decision

You feed the fire that burned us all
When you lie
To feel the pain that spurs you on
Black inside

It's your decision
It's your decision

No one plans to take the path that brings you lower
And here you stand before us all and say it's over
It's over

Time to change has come and gone
Watched your fears become your god
It's your decision

I can't help but feel some connection to what he's singing about here. I have sent out applications and resumes to dozens of places, and knocked on doors and pounded pavement. I've talked to a whole bunch of friends and family looking for some kind of backdoor way into a new career. I feel like now that I'm at the age I'm at now, I've become stuck following the path I've fallen into. I feel doomed to look to my past and wish I'd made some better choices, and now that I've made the wrong ones, my road to nowhere is set. I guess I'm having another melancholy day in a lifetime of them, with only the expectation that I have countless more to come.

I had a rough night last night. Everything seemed to be going well yesterday, and even got off location early, headed back to the shop to wash and found out they didn't have the info in the next job yet. So, I didn't get to load any product till around 5PM. Got home around 7:30 and I was gonna call b, but ended up crashing pretty much as soon as I walked in the door. I'm looking forward to getting my T4 so I can do my taxes and find out how much of my hard earned money ended up in the pockets of the Canadian gov't. Lame.

I saw that b was inquiring about acquiring a lexan rod on her twitter yesterday, and because I have so much extra, and I'm not really usin it at the moment anyway, I told her she could have it under a condition. I didn't tell her what the condition was tho, lol, just cause I know it drives her batty not knowing! ;) he he he I'm such a brat!

I said on twitter this morning that I haven't been blogging very often, and I need some motivation. I feel like in the doldrums I'm currently residing in, I've gotten complacent with many areas of my life. I've put on a bit of weight, started smoking again :(, and I'm not blogging or trying to better myself very much. Even though I'm a Dominant, I feel like my life could benefit very much from someone to give me a good lickin now and again to keep me in track and focused. Not to mention the sexual frustration I'm feeling as of late! God damn I need to roughly fuck someone! Lol.

Well, back to the grindstone! Take care all!

J

"If it ain't broke, don't fix it' is the slogan of the complacent, the arrogant or the scared. It's an excuse for inaction, a call to non-arms."

- Colin Powell

Champions.

I am still reeling after the gold medal hockey game yesterday afternoon. Our country held its collective breath after the USA tied the game with 24 seconds left in the 3rd period. And then, just over 7 minutes into the overtime period, Sidney Crosby, from the incredible feed by Jerome Iginla, went 5 hole on Miller, to bring an entire nation to its feet, in screaming and cheering glory. The pride of our nation, is at an all time high. With that goal, Canada now holds the Olympic record for most gold medals EVER won by a country in the winter Olympic games. Watching the highlights and montages of Canadian athletes doing their collective best, brought a tear to my eye. Euphoria. Passion. And national pride. Thank you, athletes, for helping us stand tall, and teaching us again, that it is a wonderful thing to be Canadian.