unwanted passes made by shower curtain...

"no, its not that i don't like you, you're just not my type, and besides, ive got a girlfriend in Calgary, and a shower curtain that i'm seeing at home..."

"WAIT, no means no! Curtain, i don't know you! I just stayed in this hotel, cause i've stayed here before and the staff is friendly and the food in the restaraunt is good!" "quit touching me!"

"just because you feel attracted to me, when im in the shower, and the hot water draws you in, does not give you permission to touch me!"

I feel so used....stupid shower curtain keeps creepin me when i'm all nekid an wet.

gross.....

J

The Boxer

In the clearing stands the boxer, and a fighter by his trade.
And he carries a reminder of every glove that laid him down...
or cut him till he cried out in his anger and his shame
"I am leaving! I am leaving" but the fighter still remains.
- - - Paul Simon and Art Garfunkel, "The Boxer"

so, ive been feeling a little bit beat down as of late, its getting harder and harder to deal with being apart from my little b. It hurts. I am sure glad I have some really great friends to help me through the rough times.

Ive been getting to know padme a lot better these days, having the oppourtunity to have some time to myself in the hotel room is both a blessing and a curse. it gives me the chance to talk to people ive wanted to, not to mention i LOVE having 3hour phone conversations with my beautiful little girl! However it is soooo unbelievablely painfully boring...

I got to chat with little padme on MSN for a little bit today. Very nice! She is an incredible little girl. Its very nice to be able to have friends i can trust to talk with about sensitive subjects...

Im excited that soon i'll get to hear my little girl's fave music! currently downloading some "Darren Hayes" music! I always love being exposed to new music!

OH! lil b is available to chat now! gotta go! ;)

"I don't give a damn
'Bout my reputation
I've never been afraid of any deviation
An' I don't really care
If ya think I'm strange
I ain't gonna change An' I'm never gonna care 'Bout my bad reputation"

- Joan Jett

Sneaky...

So, I don't hit fetlife very often, but the past few days I've been able to take a quick peek. And imagine my surprise in seeing the young girl that disappeared from contact, that I saw once before I met my little b! I haven't mentioned anything to her yet, and I don't know if I will, but I noticed. I will include a link to my post about it here...http://musingsofadiscipliner.blogspot.com/2009/11/lifestyle.html


Its odd, I want to say something to her. Find out why I was so easy to cast off. But, I know if I were in her shoes, I would not want to talk to me...

So, I've got ants in my pants, waiting to read padme's blog update about her date with A yesterday night! She mentioned on twitter that she's got some bruises from her play last night! Mmmm love hearing about how you little subbies get your marks!

My lil one didn't post yesterday, probably because by the time we got off the phone it was gettin late. We had a GREAT chat, about movies, and karaoke, and had some great laughs! Lol, the picture at the top is from one of the movies we discussed!

Lil b may get to join some other subs for coffee today, lol, we all know there's ALWAYS trouble when submissives get together without any Dom supervision! Best behavior young lady! ;)



"The parkin lot
Why not? It's so cool when you're on top!
His front lawn in the snow
Life is so hard because Scotty doesn't know!

We did it on his birthday..."


- Scotty Doesn't Know - Eurotrip Original Soundtrack

Late!

I've been trying to post every mornin, but I slept in today, was almost late for work! Lol.

Longer post later today...

The fine art of surfacing

My wonderful little girl has been having a tough go of late. I feel so torn. I care so deeply for her. She is so unbelievably special to me, and I feel its all my fault she's having such a hard time. I never want to let her go, I want to be her best friend, Dom, and lover. I will absolutely NOT leave her, but I feel like the fact that we only get to see each other once or twice a month is what's making everything so difficult. I feel selfish for wanting to keep her as mine, and I really want to know if in her heart she thinks I'm best for her. I selfishly hope she says yes.

My little girl has been trying so hard with everything going on in life, and I see that her plate has gotten a little too full. Her running schedule has suffered, and we've changed her smoking plan again. So, because of the weather, and the fact that we overestimated her free time, she will not have to run. As long as she still does a good physical activity for the length of time her running was required, she'll be ok.

The quitting thing didn't work out as well as we had planned either. She has done her best, but as we all know, cigarettes are a VERY difficult habit to break, so, she is now allowed to smoke if she is having a couple drinks.

She has tried her hardest to stay positive, and there are some aspects in her life and our relationship where she has no idea how proud I am of her. She's a very hard working little girl, and even with all the rough times she's going through, she's a trooper! Good work lil one!

I did have to give her an attitude adjustment last night over the phone, because she seemed a bit like she had lost her place a little when it comes to us. She has been forgetting to say "Sir" when she can, and still has difficulty following directions I give her, unless she has a reason. I know she's working hard on it, and I just needed to give her a little reminder to keep her on track.

I FINALLY renewed my registration, and because its been 14 days, that means 14 minutes of soapy mouthed corner time for me when I get MY punishment :(

I've made some WONDERFUL new friends in the lifestyle! Padme and Sir Anakin! You two SO ROCK! The force is strong with them. I will try, wait scratch that, "there is no try, do or do not" I will continue to keep up on their current events, and maybe update ya'll too!

"smooth seas do not make skillful sailors."

- proverbs

Darkness to light

Well, again here I am awake at the crack of dawn. I've discovered that, as long as I get to sleep early enough, getting my lazy ass outta bed isn't so tough! I know she doesn't feel like she deserves it sometimes, but I'm so proud of my little b. She's trying her hardest to follow her rules, and although she slips up a bit every now and again (as we all do!) she accepts her punishments and she knows I give them to keep her on track.

We've discovered that her sched for smoking and running have become difficult to follow. And I had a feeling they would be modified. Its ok though, I kind of expected it, and I hope she doesn't feel too bad or disappointed that she may not be able to do it all. Don't get down my little one! I'm here to help you push through the tough times, and celebrate your successes with ya!

I'm trying to think of a new way to try and develop a new training procedure for lil b to help her lessen her gag reflex, however I'm finding it kinda tough...ideas aren't coming as easy as I had hoped...any suggestions?

Now some fun for you, I will be receiving my very first, REAL adult bare bottomed punishment spanking from lil b next Wed night, and I'm not only finding myself very nervous, but I am actually kinda excited! How do you submissives process the fear and anticipation of impending punishment? Any advice on how to process the pain when it happens? Having never gone here before, these feelings are all brand new, and a little overwhelming! Comment please!

Once upon a time pt. 7

The Prince's hand rested on the small of pixie's back as he spoke. "young lady, I am very disappointed in your actions from yesterday, going into those woods after your worried mother specifically told you not to, was so dangerous! Imagine those scouts that ran into you had killed or captured you! We were so unbelievably lucky to have a happy ending here pixie....do you have anything to say for yourself before I teach you this much deserved lesson?"

Pixie was trying to formulate some kind of excuse, but knew in her heart there was no reason she should have done what she did, with a blur of tears already welling up in her eyes she said "no Sir. I am so sorry I put you through all that trouble, and I know I deserve this. Please Sir, teach me, so I don't get myself into this situation again."

The first 5 or 10 blows came in wicked succession and pixie's tears were streaming down her cheeks. Her right hand involuntarily swept up to block the sting, but as swift as she was Jesse was ready for it. His strong hand pinned hers to the small of her back as the slaps came harder and faster now. Her previously milky white bottom was now a healthy pink and she squirmed on his lap and tried to process the pain.

The Prince kept up the rapid pace until pixie was sobbing and her bottom was a very warm shade of red. Her legs began to kick a little at the end, and he would be taking care of that in just a moment.

When pixie calmed down after the hand spanking stopped the Prince stood her up and led her to the corner, placing her nose there. He put both her hands on top of her head, and she shivered as they slowly stroked down her arms, just past her heaving breasts and down her waist to the hem of her dress. Jesse lifted it at the back and twisted it so it would stay up and keep her stinging bottom exposed.

"Pixie, you will stay in this exact position until I tell you. Do you understand?"

"Yes Sir," she replied.

Jesse's hands lingered on the bare skin of her thighs for a moment longer, and then as he was leaving said, "missy, I want you to think about the worry you caused your mother, and how disappointed we both are in what you did. You know better. Think of what could have happened to you. I will be back soon."

Pixie's tears started anew as her mind reeled at the prospect of what could have happened. What would she have done had those men decided they wanted to rape her? Oh god... And mommy! She would have been worried sick! For the next 10 minutes pixie quietly cried as she thought of how she had let her mother down.

When the Prince returned, he was happy to see she was still exactly how he had left her. "let's finish this up sweetie." He said as he guided her back to the bench. He stood in front of her. "pixie, I'm going to do something that may make you feel uncomfortable at first, but I want you to do this for me."

"Yes Sir, anything." she replied

His hands reached behind her back and deftly, he unfastened her dress and slid it from her shoulders and it piled up around her feet. He reached again behind her and removed the rest of her undergarments. Pixie's chest was heaving, her eyes locked on his as he silently stripped her. Every few movements, his skin would brush hers, sending waves of electricity throughout her.

Jesse sat down on the bench and led the beautiful, naked young pixie back to his lap. When she was there, he pulled his right leg out, and scissored hers with his. He reached behind him and grabbed the bag pixie's mother had brought. From it, he withdrew the wooden spoon from pixies house!

Jesse reached across her and gripped her small wrist behind her back. Pixie realized she was completely immobilized. And suddenly felt familiar wood tapping her still sore bottom.

"oh PLEASE Sir! Not that! I'm so sorry! I'll be a good girl from now on!" she cried

"this is going to hurt, pixie. I want you to learn that you are told NOT to do things for a reason! From this moment on, you will remember this when you want to disobey, do you understand?" the Prince scolded, and she replied through fresh tears,

"yes Sir, I'm so sorry!"

Suddenly it began, and if there had been anyone near this room, they would have heard the young girl screaming and bawling as that wicked spoon rained down, over and over, skillfully wielded by the Prince.

Feel better soon...

So, my little girl has had a really rough day. I miss her terribly. We were supposed to get the chance to meet today. But work had other plans, AGAIN! Gettin pretty sick of gettin up before 4am.

My little b, when you read this, know that my heart is with you. No tears. When you read this, know that I care. When you read this, know that I won't let you down, and I will do everything in my power to be the strength you need if you need it. My little b, you will be with me in dreams tonight, and soon, I will taste your lips.

J

A real update!

Wow. That story has been taking up precious blogging time! I think the characters will continue to be part of a story with no end. Before I post a story, I always read it out loud to lil b cause she lufs it when I read to her. Part 7 is comin, I know the title is there, that was me hitting send instead of save, by accident.

So, I'm not sure how to put it on the blog page via the blackberry, but you can follow me on. Twitter - "friendlouis"

Once upon a time pt. 7

Once upon a time Pt. 6

The dinner in the castle's grand dining hall was a picture of opulence. Succulent food, wonderful entertainment, and great conversation! When desert was served Prince Jesse addressed his guests,

"my loyal subjects. Thank you for gracing me and my family with your presence. Although this wonderful dinner has come to an end, please, join us in the ballroom for dancing and conversation. I may not be available all night to speak with you, but please, stay as long as you like, and enjoy the rest of your evening!"

After a nice applause, the Prince excused himself, and tapped Pixie's mother on the shoulder. The both left the room, and Pixie knew they'd be discussing her fate for tomorrow. A few minutes passed, and Jesse entered by himself!

Pixie wondered where her mother could have gone? About 45 minutes later, Pixie's mother reentered the ballroom, carrying a small bag. The Prince went over to see her and they were gone again for a few minutes. When they reentered again together, they were both smiling and beckoned Pixie to join them.

She practically ran over, and when she got there her mother kissed her on the cheek and whispered in her ear. "behave yourself young lady!" and disappeared into the crowd of dancers.

The Prince took Pixie by the hand, and led her off through hallways and rooms till they reached an opulent bedroom. She was surprised at first, and couldn't help but notice the mess of butterflies swimming in her stomach!

He brought her over to a small bench and sat her down next to him. Pixie's palms were sweating now, and she was wondering what was next!

He turned to look at her, and finally, spoke softly to her, but his firm gaze never left her own.

"Pixie, since the first time I laid eyes on you, yesterday afternoon, I have not been able to get you out of my mind. I find your presence intoxicating, and asked your mother's permission to ask you if I could court you. I also discussed something else with her, which we will talk about in a minute. But for now, Pixie, will you do me the honor of allowing me to kiss you?"

Pixie blushed, looking in his eyes and smiled, "yes your highness!"

He took her in his arms, and kissed her deeply and passionately! The world around them disappeared, and they were lost in this very special moment of lips on lips for the first time.

When they finally stopped, he said, "I take it that's a yes to courtship?" and they both giggled as she nodded.

"Well then!" said the prince, "now we can discuss something a little less pleasant. I'm sorry we have to do this, but your mother and I feel it quite necessary."

Pixie was lost, wondering what they could have spoken about.

"As you know, a soldier's wage is quite costly. And in our search for you, I employed nearly 10 men in your rescue. I do not expect you or your mother to pay this of course, however, I need you to understand the circumstances. Your mother told me also, that, because you went into the woods alone after being explicitly told not to, along with the situation with the soldiers, has earned you a VERY serious punishment.

Pixie was bright red now, eyes staring at her feet, nodding as tears of shame and guilt welled up in her eyes.

He continued, "so you're mother told me exactly what consequences you would suffer at home, and we also agreed that if you were to accept my courtship, I would take over the responsibility of taking care of this from now on." He handed her the bag her mother had brought in earlier. "she told me this has been used in your family for many years for just such an occasion, and suggested we get this out of the way right now, so that we all can enjoy the rest of the evening without dread."

Pixie's teary eyes were wide as saucers, but, nodded in acceptance. She said, "I am SO sorry Sire. I understand I deserve this, and I promise to try harder in the future."

"thank you Pixie, please stand." He said.

She stood before him, and shivered as she felt his rough hands reach up her dress and tug down her undergarments.

With one swift movement she found herself being draped over his lap like a very naughty young girl, which is exactly how she felt at this moment. And she braced herself for what was to come.

Once upon a time Pt. 5

As Pixie's mother and the Prince slowly headed away from the pile of armor, they hadn't made it more than 20 feet when they heard the rustling in the woods, back the way they came. They stopped and strained to hear, but it stopped. As they turned to investigate, a muffled cry for help emanated from the pile of armor!

Although it felt like eternity for all 3 of them, only an instant passed as Jesse and Pixie's mother leapt from the horse and ran back to the pile. Pixie yelled again as they threw the pieces of armor off her.

Jesse gently sat her up and removed the wet blindfold from her sore eyes, and she blinked first from the sudden sunlight, then from the shock of realization that it was the Prince that freed her! Her mother crashed into her, a tumble of hugs and kisses!

"THANK GOD you're ok!" she shouted as Jesse cut the ropes that bound her wrists behind her back. Pixie wrapped her sore arms around her mother and sobbed, "oh mommy! Thank you for saving me!"

Smiling from a few feet away, Jesse humbly stayed silent.

"Oh no!" said Pixie's mother, "if Prince Jesse hadn't come to help me, you may have perished here!" tears filling her eyes now.

The Prince helped her up and asked if she was ok to ride. With her nod, she was lifted to the saddle with her mother, and he led the horse back the way they came.

Suddenly into the bush, in a crash of leaves, one of the soldiers came upon them.

"oh thank heavens! You've found her!" he exclaimed. "the scouting party that did this got away, all except for one, he was badly injured, and left for dead. He told us, before he passed, that the girl had stumbled upon their camp."

"wait a minute." said Pixie's mother, "she walked into these woods by herself, and was attacked here? Not dragged in? Pixie! Is this true??"

Pixie couldn't speak. She looked down at the ground and nodded as new tears welled up in her eyes.

"We are going to have a SERIOUS talk about this young lady." her mother scolded. "not only did you endanger your life by entering the woods I specifically forbade you to, but you caused all sorts of chaos for our Prince!"

"Oh mother! I'm SO sorry! Sire! Please, I'm sorry don't do anything to my mother for this! Its all my fault," Pixie wept.

"dear, dear, shhhh. Calm down." Jesse said. Tonight you and your mother will join me at MY table for the feast. We will find a suitable replacement for your mother in the kitchen. And you will both do me the honor of staying in the castle tonight. You will both get a good nights sleep, and tomorrow morning, when we've all had a chance to rest, the THREE of us will have this discussion TOGETHER. Your mother is right, that some things need to be dealt with regarding this situation, however, after discussing things with your mother over dinner tonight, we will come to an agreement that satisfies us both. Ok?"

They both nodded their heads with eager anticipation at the nights festivities, and deep down, Pixie was even a little excited at the prospect of getting to know the attractive young Prince a little better!

Once upon a time Pt. 4

Pixie awoke in a haze at first, her mind trying to wipe away the fog of sleep from her consciousness. And suddenly there was pain.

"ohhhhh" she groaned as her head pounded from the injury suffered earlier. She looked around, but all was dark. Still groggy, her memory of what had happened began to slowly creep back. Berry picking, sneaking into the forest, the armor, then....

"what happened," she thought. And reaching up to rub her head, sudden and unexpected restriction. "Wha....?" and the realization. Her wrists were bound behind her back! And its not dark out, she was blindfolded! Her mind shot the response almost instantly to her body, Panic. She thrashed and struggled against her bonds. Her body writhing and squirming in a way very similar to how it moved when she found herself draped over her mother's lap. However, like when she was in that situation, her struggles were for naught. She wondered where she was, how much time had passed? And the warm, choking, wet tears began to dampen the blindfold.

"help!" she squeaked through tears. Her mouth still dry from sleeping. A cough, "HELP!!!" she was able to shout this time. The sound echoed as though she was trapped in a steel room. But the ground was damp and soft earth.

And suddenly, from not too far away, she heard the sound of heavy approaching footsteps.

Once upon a time pt. 3

"SIRE! SIRE!" shouted the messenger as he ran into the court. "Our patrols have spotted scouts from the kingdom to the north in the woods at our northern border! We also have word that a young girl living in the staff housing nearby has igone missing!"

Prince Jesse lept from his seat. "What girl?" he insisted "What is her name?"

"I don't know yet Sire, all I know is her and her mother work here in the castle kitchens, her mother is frantic, and she had to be forcibly held back from heading into the woods by herself this morning!"

The Prince was already out into the grand hall leading out from the court. He was headed for the stables as fast as his feet would carry him.

"I've only just learned her name! Please let me not be too late to actually hear her speak!" he worried to himself.

Pixie's mom was about ready to start screaming when she saw the large horse galloping toward the small group of royal guards surrounding her.

She bent to a knee as she realized it was the Prince! New tears streamed from her cheeks as she begged, "please Sire, don't take me to the prisons, I only need to find my daughter! I told her to stay away from the woods, but she didn't listen!"

"Madam, worry yourself no longer. You need not fear prison. I came to collect you, and the two of us will find her." Jesse told her.

"Oh thank you Sire! Thank you!" and she ran to the horse and rider.

"Listen up soldiers!" he ordered "grab whatever men you can find nearby, and start searching the northern woods. Anything you find, or any information, give to one rider who will bring it to the court. He will head back and gather more from you then. Continue this until I tell you to stop, or you find the girl. Do you understand?"

"Yes Sir!" they shouted, and began running off.

Jesse made a clicking noise with his tongue, and spurred the horse towards where Pixie's mother had found the empty and abandoned berry basket. And as sudden as he had appeared before her, Pixie's mother and the young Prince disappeared into the woods.

Their ride was quick, but thorough. They could not gallop through the thick woods, and though panicked, they both knew they needed to keep a keen eye out for any sign of the young girl.

Suddenly, glinting in the morning sun they spotted it. A large pile of armor and Pixie's white shawl, it had a large spot of crimson on its collar.

Pixie's mother wept, and prayed they would find her unharmed.

Once upon a time pt. 2

"Hi mommy!" Pixie shouted as she kicked off her shoes and slammed the door. She slumped down on one of the small kitchen chairs, happy to be off her aching feet for a moment.

"Hey lil one, don't get too comfy, I need you to run out back and pick some berries for tomorrow's feast, I'm busy with our dinner tonight."

"Awwwww, mom!" Pixie whined, as she frowned. "I don't wanna!"

Her mom walked over and stood next to Pixie. "unless you need your panties pulled down little one, I'd suggest you hop to it, and you'll stay away from the woods if you don't want me to use the wooden spoon missy!"

Pixie slowly got up and stomped back to the door. And just as she was walking out, she turned and stuck her tongue out at her mom.

"watch it Pixie!" shouted her mom, but she was already out the door.

Pixie sauntered over to the berry bushes out back, and couldn't help but notice they were pretty bare. There were, however, some wonderful looking ones on the bushes at the edge of the woods nearby. She quickly snuck over to the bushes, when something just inside the forest caught her eye. The light from the setting sun had glinted off it and she figured, what would be the harm in checking it out? So, she set her basket by the bush, its branches still sagging with the weight of the berries, her basket near empty, and she crept into the woods, she realized suddenly, if she was caught, she'd definitely be spending her night sleeping on her tummy, and looked back toward the edge of the woods, trying to decide if she should just go back...

"well, I've gone this far, already, so if I get caught I'm gonna get it either way." she muttered to herself as she vowed to make sure no one found out she went into the woods. As she got close to the small gleaming bit of metal, she realized it wasn't small at all! It was a large pile of discarded bits of armor and weaponry!

Suddenly the brush behind her snapped, and before she could whip around to see what made the sound, she was blinded by pain in the back of her head, and the world went black.

Pixie's mom stared into the darkness from her kitchen window, and wondered, "what is taking her so very long?"

Once upon a time. Pt.1

Once upon a time, in a far away land, a kingdom prospered. In the largest city, there was a castle in the center. In this castle lived a prince. Prince Jesse was a fair, but firm leader of his people. Since his father, the king, had been overcome by illness, Jesse had the opportunity to practice as leader, and had soon proven he would be a worthy successor to the people's beloved king.

Jesse was happy to lead the kingdom, however, he very much liked to get a feel for his people's thoughts as one of them. So, some days, he would dress as a commoner, and make his way to the city streets to hear the conversations of his townspeople. On one of these particular trips, as the prince snuck from the castle, he saw a beautiful young woman making her way from the kitchens toward the staff housing. He had never seen this young lady before, and was transfixed by her beauty! For a brief moment, he stared at her, and for the slightest moment, their eyes met. The shy young woman turned quickly, blushing, and continued to her home.

After this encounter, the young Prince found his mind wandering to the beautiful young lady all day as he made his way through town. He could not keep focused for his whole trip, and when he made his way back to the castle and after a bit of searching, discovered the young lady had been hired as a scullery maid in the kitchen where her mother cooked. He found the head chef and asked what he knew of her.

"Her name is pixie, Sire" the cook told him, surprised to see the Prince at this late hour. "She was hired yesterday to be trained in the kitchen to work with her mother, now that she has turned 18."

The Prince learned she lived near by in the staff housing, and was glad to hear her mother was well liked in the kitchens, and the two of them were quite similar in personality. He wandered the halls of the castle for a while, and eventually made it to his bed chamber, still lost in thought of this young lady. The name "Pixie," would forever be burned in his memory.

Short but sweet.

So I won't be doin a long post here, but, lil b and I had a nice conversation last night, and as it stands, she has a 5 min belt strapping coming along with 5min with the wooden spoon, she gets a facial with cornertime, 10 min with the medium plug, 27 plus one to grow on with the paddle at the fet club gathering by all attending, a webcam broadcast for me, 12 pics to be posted here, and one for her blog! Wow. She better be on her best behavior till I see her next! Lol.

No service :(

So I'm sittin here on location, with absolutely no cell service. So, usually I kill time by texting or talkin to lil b, or browse the many blogs I read, or watch my twitter feed and see what Padme, or Adele Haze, and Natty are doin today. But not today! Today I get to sit here and listen to AM radio and twiddle my thumbs! Yay! I can't even post this until I get to an area with service! It really sucks, because I was really starting to get into Padme's twitter feed! She's just too adorable when she talks about her new admirer, "the young Dom (A)" hehehe I couldn't help but giggle at her schoolgirl like crush.

And lil b went out last night to celebrate her mom's bday, and in the mornin I told her NO smoking! She got to have some on her birthday, but, after having a few drinks, she smoked. :( and not just one... I don't know what I'm gonna do, but she knows she was a VERY naughty little girl last night, and will be dealt with as such...

Anyway, I will keep ya'll updated.

Killin time...

So, I'm stuck out at work, again, and I have certainly not been very diligent when it comes to updating, as of late. I have some stuff to chat about and I'd love some feedback!

So first things first. Lil b has finished her first two weeks of her running sched, and was not successful in some of it. She missed a day, on top of her free missed day, so she has a punishment strapping coming. And because she is terrified of the enema, we've had a discussion, and she will be wearing the medium plug for 10 min, in the corner. She really hates that thing, so, its not like she's being let off the hook or anything. Lol. She also did not do any blog updates about her running, and she has chosen a special punishment to pay for that. She will be giving me a nice long blow job, on her knees, that I will have control of. I will be making her gag, and it will get a little messy, because when I cum, it will be on her face, and she will keep it there while she does her corner time with the plug in.

Now, because I want her to earn her reward still, and I'm such a nice Dom, lol, she opted to do a special web cam show just for me, sometime this week, to earn back her reward.

So, I got a little work done on paddle #2 the last time I was home, and I may be able to have it finished for when I see her next! Fun! I just have to drill the holes, and do a bit of finishing touches, and oil it! I will include a pic here of where it is now, and when its done. I hope it turns out the way I imagine!

Last night was my lil b's birthday! She went for dinner with some fam, and I was so sad I couldn't be there with her :( but, when I come see her, if the paddle is done, she'll be gettin 27 swats and one to grow on! ;)

Now, some unpleasantness... I have accepted the spanking I have earned, and I'm dreading it a little...I am looking forward to getting it over with, but just thinking about it makes my tummy do flips! I will be getting a soapy mouth AND cornertime too! So unfair! *pouts* lol. J/k I earned it and will accept my fate :( I will be allowing lil b to take pics during my punishment, and I will be posting some here, hope ya'll aren't too disgusted with seeing "man ass!"

I hope I get the opportunity to see her soon...

"The mind is seldom quickened to very vigorous operations but by pain, or the dread of pain. We do not disturb ourselves with the detection of fallacies which do us no harm."

 - Samuel Johnson

Been too long...

So, its been waaaay too long since I updated. So much has happened! I'll try and remember it all.

The big one is that I went to see lil b last friday, and gave her the punishment she had earned by smoking on new years eve/day. I didn't end up giving her the enema, but she wore the medium plug for a while, which was quite uncomfortable. She spent some time in the corner, and she got the wooden spoon spanking of a lifetime. I gave her a full 5 minutes hard and fast, and she was a very VERY sorry girl, let me tell you! We ended up going to a public kink gathering on Friday night, and got to see some very fun and interesting things! However, all was not daisies and sunshine...

While at the gathering, one of the things I've been dreading talking to her about, regarding my past, ended up coming out. And not the way I wanted it to. It was a secret I knew she needed to know, however, the way she learned about it was not right. She was hurt by this, and we've discussed it, and now we have decided on a new course of action.

Because I expressed interest in receiving a spanking, and what I did warranted one, lil b will be giving me my very first "real" bare bottomed punishment spanking. EEP! Because of my transgression, I know I deserve it. And I am afraid. I will be getting a mouth soaping, corner time, and a spanking with both her hand, and the wooden spoon. Yikes!

Then on the way to the hotel, we were pulled over! And due to my own absent mind, I forgot to renew my registration last october. I received a ticket for failure to produce registration! LAME! And that may factor in to the lickin I get too! :(

The next day, we slept in, and cuddled, and warmed eachother's bottoms, and then, I went for lunch with lil b and some of her family! It was soooo fun! I had a great time and I'm looking forward to seeing her again as soon as possible, although, I am also dreading it because of what's gonna happen! Well, I can't think of any more to write, and I'll try and do another update tomorrow.

J
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Uh oh....

So, I got stuck working on new years eve, and ended up spending the countdown driving home from Saskatchewan. But, my wonderful lil b got to go out with friends, and ring in the new decade in style! As you read in the stop smoking post a few days ago, lil b's stop smoking plan started on Jan 1st. We both agreed that at midnight on Jan first she could have her final cigarette, and she tried. However, a little while later, in her intoxicated state, and with much prodding by some of her friends(bad influence!) she asked me, actually begged me if she could have one more. I, of course said no. More than once. I found out, the next morning, she decided to go against what I said, and have one anyway. :0


I will be posting more regarding this and a few other things later...
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